Title: Finding Love.

Author: Mystic

E-mail: vanilla_fantasy99@yahoo.com

Pairing: Joey/Chris

Rating: NC-17 (M/M sex and some cussing.)

Feedback: OF COURSE! J

Archive: List archives are fine. Anyone else just ask.

Summery: I’m really bad at these just please read. Its kinda good for my first Chris/Joey fic

Warning: Um no I don’t think just M/M sex.

Disclaimer: *sniffles* I don’t know them. I wish I did tho.

Notes: I am a 100% sappy romantic. So BEWARE! Lol

Joey sat reclined on his couch on one of his rare days off. The television was on but he couldn’t tell you what was on. Sighing he rubbed his eyes with the palms of his hands. ‘Jesus how can I be in love with a man.’ He groaned and said aloud, “Not just any man. Chris Kirkpatrick.” He slid farther down on the couch so his head was resting on the arm. Everyone thought he was a ladies man but he wasn’t. Sure he had dates with women and he had a daughter but everyone dreamed about having a special someone and his special someone just happened to be Chris.

Joey started watching the news when there was a knock on the front door. Jumping up he walked over to open the door. He wasn’t prepared for the site that awaited him. He gasped, “Chris. Oh my god what happened to you?” Joe looked at Chris up and down. He had a black and blue eye and bruises all over his face. Joe ushered Chris into the house. “Go sit in the living room. I’ll get you some aspirin and a glass of water.”

Chris sat down on the couch. He shook his head. He softly said, “I don’t want the aspirin. Maybe just some water.”

Joe nodded, “Okay but when I come back from the kitchen I want to know what happened to you.” He hurried to the kitchen to get the water so he could get back to Chris and find out what happened. After getting the water he went back to the living room what he saw made his heartache.

Chris sat on the couch huddled in the corner of the couching. Hugging a pillow. He didn’t know what he was going to tell Joe. He sighed. ‘If I tell Joe the truth he is going to blow his stack.’ He looked up when he heard Joe come back in the room. Sighing he looked back down at the pillow. Taking a deep breath, ‘Smells like Joe. No I can’t have those thought about Joe.’ He chided himself

Joe sighed and sat down on beside Chris. “Okay man spill. What happened?” When Chris started Joe held up his hand, “And I want the truth all of it.”

Chris sighed and nodded, “You know I was going out with Jeremiah right?” When Joe nodded he continued, “Well instead of going straight home yesterday I went out looking for a gift for him because yesterday was our anniversary. When I got to his place he was sitting in the living room with a bottle of whiskey. As soon as he saw me he few off the handle because he thought was out cheating on him. When I told him I wasn’t he asked where I was and I told him I was out getting his present. That’s when he slapped me across the face. I was so shocked I just stood there. He just kept accusing me of cheating. When I tried to defend myself again he punched me in face. That’s how I got the black eye.” He stopped and took some deep breaths.

Joe laid his hand on Chris’s arm. “If you don’t want to tell me the rest. Its okay.”

Chris shook his head. “No I want to tell you all of it. After he punched me he pulled me over to the couch and sat me down. When I tried to get up he shoved me back down.” He unconsciously rubbed the spot on his chest. “I just sat there and let him yell til he passed out. Then I just packed up my stuff that I had there and left.”

Without thinking Joey pulled Chris into his arms and held him. “Where did you go last night Chris?”

Chris fisted his hand in Joey’s shirt and held on tight. “I just went home. It was late and I didn’t want to bother anyone.” He took in as many deep breaths as he could. He took in the Joey’s scent. ‘God he smells good. Why couldn’t he be in love with me like I love him.’

Joey held on to Chris tightly. “Chris you could have came here. You know you are welcome here anytime.” He run his fingers threw Chris’s short hair. ‘Oh Chris. I wouldn’t do this to you.’ He sighed and just held Chris.

They sat in silence for awhile. When Joey asked, “Chris you still okay? You wanna go up and laid down for awhile?” He looked down at Chris and he smiled because Chris was already sleeping. Slowly he slid out from under Chris so he could pick him up. Carrying him upstairs Joe took him into his bedroom instead of the guest room. After getting Chris situated on the bed he laid down next to him. “Oh Chris Why couldn’t you be love with me I would never do anything like this too you.” He sighed and traced the bruises on Chris’s face. Then he let himself relax next to Chris.

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Chris slowly woke up to the feeling of being in a nice warm bed with a solid body next to him. Then he remembered where he was. Looking up he saw Joe’s peaceful face. ‘He’s so handsome. Why do I have to be love with you when you can’t love me back?’ He laid his head back down on Joe’s chest and allowed himself to enjoy the few peaceful moments.

Joey felt Chris wake up. He smiled to himself when he felt Chris snuggle into him. He tightened his arms around Chris’s waist. “You okay?” He felt Chris tense then start to pull away. Joe didn’t let him pull away tho he kept his hold tight.

Chris thought Joe was going to flip out when he realized they snuggled together but when he went to pull away he felt Joe tighten his arms. Settling back down he sighed, “I’m okay Joe. I feel better. Thanks.”

“No problem Chris.” Joe sighed. ‘I am going to tell him. I know it might not be the right time but I have to tell him.’ “Chris I have something I want to tell you. I just don’t want you to hate me when I tell you.”

Chris looked up at Joey. “What is it Joey? You know I could never hate you. You can tell me.” He waited for Joey to continue patiently.

Joey rolled them over so they were lying on their sides face to face. “I love you Chris. I know that it isn’t a very appropriate time to tell you but I do. I love you and I would never hurt like this ever. It hurts me so much to see you in pain like this.” He watched Chris closely for signs of disgust or anger.

Chris couldn’t believe what he was hearing. ‘This has to be a dream there is no way he just said he loved me.’ Looking at Joey he looked for signs of pity but he didn’t find any just love. “Oh Joe. I can’t believe you love me. Me of all people.”

Joey sighed, “Chris I don’t want you to be mad or for things to cha….” Chris’s lips cut him off mid-sentence. He moaned into the kiss. Rolling over so Chris was on top of him Joey ran his hands up and down his back. The need for air made them pull apart. “Mmm Chris. I have wanted to do that for a while.”

Chris smiled slightly. He couldn’t smile to wide because it made the bruises hurt. “Really? Well I wish you would have. It could have saved a lot of time and heartache.” He sighed when Joey’s hand came up and traced the bruise patterns. “Don’t worry about it. Doesn’t hurt much anymore.”

“If he comes near you again.” Joey left the threat unfinished because he knew Chris understood what he meant. “So what does this mean for us?”

Chris laid his head down on Joey’s chest. “What do you want this to mean for us?” He closed his eyes tightly not sure whether he wanted to hear Joey’s answer. ‘If all he wants is a one time fling then that is what I want too but please god let him want more.’

Joey looked into Chris’s eyes and spoke from his heart. “I want this to be the start of something very special. People think that I’m this huge womanizer but I really do want to settle down. I have a daughter now and I should have someone stable in my life. I want you to be the that special someone Chris.”

Chris felt tears brimming in his eyes. ‘He wants me to be his special someone and share a life with his daughter. This is more then I could ever hope for.’ He leaned down and placed a passionate kiss on Joey’s lips. He hoped that it would convey his feelings because he didn’t think he would be able to speak them.

Joey read the message clearly and moaned. ‘He wants to be with me too. Thank you God.’ He slowly ran his hands up under Chris’s shirt. The hot skin under his hands felt like heaven. He pulled on Chris’s shirt. He smiled when Chris sat up and pulled the shirt over his head. The smile quickly turned into a scowl when he saw the dark purple hand print on Chris’s chest.

Chris got worried when he saw the scowl. ‘Is he disappointed?’ “Is something wrong?”

Joey quickly sat up and wrapped his arms around Chris. “You’re beautiful baby. I was scowling at the bruise on your chest.” He placed gentle kisses on the dark abused area. “You don’t deserve things like this baby.”

Chris laid his forehead on the top of Joey’s head. “Maybe now I won’t have to go through it ever again.”

Joey laid Chris down on the bed and hovered above him. “I will never ever raise a hand to you.” He leaned and softly kissed Chris’s lips. He moved down to his chin then down his chest. Taking one of the dark nipples into his mouth Joey sucked and bit it until it was a hard nub. His tongue left a wet trail as he made his way to the over dark nipple.

Chris groaned and withered, “Mmm. Joe. Oh God.”

Joey moved from Chris’s nipples down lower to the dark hairline that lead straight to a place he just couldn’t wait to be. He traced the hairline with his tongue. Lying sporadic kisses and love bites every so often just so he could hear Chris make those whimpering and moaning noise.

“Mmmm. Please god Joey take me. I want you. I have always wanted you. Please Joey.” Chris whimpered and clawed at Joey’s back. ‘Why the hell is he still dressed?’ He pushed on Joey’s shoulders. Joey sat up straddling Chris’s thighs. When Joey gave him an impatient look he said, “Why are you still dressed? I’m half naked here.”

Joey leered at Chris, “If you wouldn’t have stopped me you would have been completely naked in a minute.” He laughed when Chris gave an exasperated sighed. Taking the hint Joey pulled his shirt off and threw behind him somewhere. “Better now we’re both half naked.”

‘Only he could make jokes at time like this.’ Chris shook his head and smiled, “No it isn’t better. We should both be completely naked.”

Joey smiled. “That can be arranged.” He leaned down unbuttoned Chris’s baggy jeans. Pulling them down he caught site of Chris’s boxers. Chuckling he said, “Jesus baby.” Chris had on a pair of Backstreet Boys logo boxer.

Chris looked down to see what had put on this morning. He hadn’t really been thinking when he got dressed this morning he had just wanted to get to Joey’s house. ‘Oh god I put on the Backstreet Boys pair.’ “They were a gag gifted from Howie and Brian last year for my birthday.”

Joey stopped chuckling and got back to the matter at hand. He pulled the boxers off along with the baggy jeans. His breath caught when he took in a fully naked Chris. ‘Jesus he is more sexy then I pictured in my dreams.’ “Baby you are so sexy.” He bent to kiss Chris’s stomach when Chris halted him again. Becoming more impatient Joey jerked his head and looked at Chris. “What?” he whined.

Chris giggled. “Don’t be so impatient.” He slid his hands down Joey’s body to the button on his pants. Pulling on the button it popped free. He inched the zipper down slowly. “I was just going to take your pants off so I could touch you. Don’t you want me to touch you?”

Joey groaned, “Yes I would like you to touch me.” He hurried stood up and pulled his sweats off. He was left completely exposed to his new lover. He smiled when Chris held his arms open for him. Lying back down in his arms Joey latched on to the side of his neck.

Chris groaned when he felt Joey’s bare skin against his. He left Joey latch on to his neck. ‘Oh my god he is giving me a hickey.’ The thought was enough to make him giddy. “Joey. Please I need you. I want you to make love to me. Please.”

Joey sat up and looked at Chris. “Are you sure? I mean you are still with your boyfriend and I don’t want you too do something you are going to regret.” He sighed. He wanted this with all his heart but he wanted Chris to be absolutely sure.

Chris closed his eyes and sighed. Things were definitely over with Jeremiah so this wouldn’t be cheating. He looked at Joey and gave him his answer. “Yes Joey I want this so much. I am going to end things with Jeremiah as soon as I am sure he is sober and can answer the phone. I have wanted you for along time. I want this now.”

Joey smiled. He got the answer that he wanted to hear. Leaning down he placed a gentle kiss on Chris’ mouth. He reached over to the nightstand and opened the drawer to get the lube. He moved so he was kneeling between Chris’s thighs. He leaned down over him. Bracing himself on one arm he loomed over Chris. He squeezed enough lube out of the tube on to his fingers. He prepared Chris slowly. He took great enjoyment in watching Chris’s face as he prepared him. When he was sure Chris was completely ready for him he sat back up on his knees to lube up his cock.

Chris watched Joey sit back up. He reached out his hand said, “Here let me do it.” He took the lube from Joey’s hands. He squeezed a liberal amount in his palm and worked his hand up and down over Joey’s shafted. He smiled when Joey whimpered and growled.

Joey knocked Chris’s hand away from his shaft. “Enough. I am going to cum if you keep that up.” Joey moved so he was hovering above Chris. He looked into his eyes and asked one more time. “Are you sure about this?”

Chris groaned, “Yes Joey I am sure. I wanted this now. I want you. Fuck me.” He groaned and his eyes drifted closed as Joey slowly pushed inside him. “Oh Joey…MMM…you’re so big.”

Joey groaned at the feel of the tight hot passage. “Christ this is so good….MMM.” When he was buried deep in Chris he paused and allowed Chris to adjust to his big size. He started to move when Chris shifted his hips. He pushed in with force and hit Chris’s prostate.

Chris cried out in pleasure. “Fuck. MMM…. Baby you’re so good.” He panted and whimpered under Joey. He clawed at Joey’s back. He had many lovers in the past but none compared in the least to Joey.

Joey liked the way Chris clawed at his back. He was sure that he was going to have marks but that was good. He wanted physical reminders of their first time together. “Chris….Baby….So good. I love you.” He could feel that he was going to explode at any time. He wanted Chris to come with him. He reached a hand between them and worked his hand up and down Chris’s shaft. “Lover I am going to cum. I want you to come with me.”

Chris moaned and groaned. “MMM….Baby I am so ready. Make me cum Joey.” This time when Joey pulled out the pushed in forcefully he exploded. He screamed in pleasure. “FUCK JOEY!!!”

When Chris clamped his muscles around Joey’s cock that was all it took for Joey to cum. He came screaming, “CHRIS!!!”

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They laid in the afterglow of the most beautiful lovemaking of their lives holding each other. Chris’s head laid on Joey’s chest. He sighed when he felt Joey’s hand running up and down over his back. He was thinking about what he heard Joey say during their lovemaking. ‘It was just the heat of the moment wasn’t it I mean he doesn’t love me does he?’

Joey looked down at Chris and saw the distant look on his face. ‘Is he regretting what we did?’ “Is something wrong Chris? Do you regret this?” He hoped that he was going to get the answer he wanted.

Chris looked up at Joey. “No I don’t regret what we did. I could never regret something so wonderful. Its just something you said.”

‘Uh-Oh. What did I say? Leave it to me to ruin everything with my big mouth.’ Joey thought. “What did I say?”

Chris sighed. “You told me you loved me.”

Joey sighed. “I do. It wasn’t just on of those heat of the moment things. I really do love you.”

Chris closed his eyes. He felt the tears well in his eyes. He was happy for the first time in ages he was actually happy.

Joey felt something wet on his chest. When he looked at saw Chris was crying he pulled Chris on top of him then up so they were face-to-face. He got a worried look on his face, “Chris?”

Chris smiled through the tears. “I love you too Joey so much.” He laid a gentle kiss on Joey’s lips then snuggled his face into Joey’s neck not bothering to move from on top of him.

Joey sighed in contentment. He reached down and pulled the blankets up over them. He wrapped his arms around his lover and held him tightly. He breathed in the sweet smell of Chris’s shampoo. He was happy. Things were prefect now.

THE END!